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[Nadia Swiftar]

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Finding Tai was no problem… She could see in his eyes that he knew something was amiss with her and so asked if she could speak with him privately before anyone else noticed anything.

In his office she only explained that she needed his guidance on whom to go to regarding mastering the art of mediation and understanding the mind. She needed his confidence and he was happy to give it to her. He indeed gave her the name of his sensei and told her he would take her there within the next couple of days. Relieved that she might find peace in her mind while under this mans guidance she took her leave and headed to her new home…

She needed to clean up the mess that had been left.. clenching her jaw she knew this was going to disturb her, but she knew it must be done. She needed to erase the signs of his madness for herself and for him should he go there… she wanted him only to think of the positive things and not see what his anger had led him to do.. it would only make him angry again.. thus keeping him in his circle of insanity.

Reaching the house her mind went back to that night and she could feel the pain suffocating her heart. Her hands balled into fists by her side and she had to force herself to stop thinking this way. She closed her eyes and took in a deep breath smelling the flowers around her and listening to the birds that surrounded the sky. Her hands loosened and she was able to open her eyes and think only of the task at hand and not what led to the mess she was cleaning up.

Going in she immediately saw the dried blood on the floor.. Ignoring the feelings stirring in her heart she went to get a bucket with soap and water to scrub the floors with… Bending down she took off her gloves and took the sponge in hand. Vigorously she scrubbed and scrubbed, getting harsher with every moment. She could not stop the images from coming.. from haunting and soon she could only see the anger behind her eyes. She threw down the sponge and held her head. Looking up her eyes were filled with lust for revenge.. with rage. Throwing her hands in the air she began to scream. She seemed almost animalistic in this moment. She got up and began to run upstairs to find a weapon in Vaen’s closet. As she reached the library she saw on the floor a book left opened… she had been reading the love letters she saved from them last time she was here… The anger became anguish and she collapsed onto the floor. “ NO I will not be weak.. I will not break down.. I will finish this.. I will win” With all of her will she held it in… she took control of her anger..” I must find Tai’s sensei soon.

She left the house as if it had never seen a moment of madness and set out to find some peace at her own home.