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[Nadia Swiftar]

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Vaen,

I write to you with pain encompassing my heart and my soul filled with sorrow that you have become a man I do not know. We had no opportunity to speak civilly last eve and we both reacted out of emotion. The wounds you left me with physically are nothing as compared to the wounds I now bear in my heart. There was so much left unsaid and I fear it will remain that way. I do encourage you to think of your own past before you judge me for the small indiscretion I was part of. I merely kissed a man… think back to your own past and you will find you were guilty of much worse, and yet you were given chances to love again. I am a mere human such as yourself.. we fall prey to many things in this life, and loneliness is no exception. You have left me many nights and days wondering when things would be back to normal for us and each night that passed left me with a little less hope that you held the love for me that you once had. I turned and gave into my loneliness in the arms of another.. one who is caring and attentive… one much like the way you used to be to me… what happened to you?

If anyone is guilty of a crime here it is you. You abandoned our love and for what? You come back to me with evil burning in your eyes.. with violence.. with what seems almost no emotion but anger. You hurt me and this brings a smile to your face? I fall and all you do is look down upon me with a smirk? Where is the man who would have held me in his arms and soothed my fears? He is dead for now it seems and I must mourn his loss and know he is replaced by a wretched man. But I will not sit here and mourn the loss of a man I know exists somewhere inside of you still. I will find out where you have been.. what happened to you… even if the only result is to quell the anger.. the evil that burns within you. I look not for my own selfishness… I will mend my broken heart, but I will look for the betterment of others who may cross your path in the future.

I have one last thing to say that will ease your mind greatly and thus will allow your black heart to think of me no more. I do not and did not carry your child. I have been so distraught and worried about our future that it has in a way caused my body to shut down in some ways. I suffered only from your own hand last eve and from nothing else. The blood that was spilled was my own and thankfully not of an innocent child. I was sad to find out that I had never been carrying our child… but in retrospect I am not sad but happy to know you will not be sworn to be out of some obligation, I want only love to be any mans obligation to me and it seems you have lost this obligation to me. I never lost that to you… no matter what you may think by my kissing another man. There was always love for you and hope that you would come back to me and we could once again be the wondrous couple we had always been.

My last thought for you is that my heart has always been yours and you have taken it and thrown it on the ground to stomp on. It is no longer available for your stomping or for any mans. I will covet it and protect it from seeing the pain of rejection once again. But also know that I will always remember you for the man you were and not for what you have turned into. There will always be love deep down for that man and I shall go to my grave with fond memories of that love.
-Brianha

[Cal Hurst]

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Vaen read the note over with a soft chuckle.

"What does she think she's accomplishing by writing me? I care not for her, I love myself. I am all that matters, and that is the only way anyone will ever survive in the world. You attach yourself to someone, and they become your weakness. Others will exploit it. You become weak."

Vaen's eyed turned a deep red as he read the note over one last time, then crumpled it into a ball and threw it in the air. He flicked his wrist and a fireball shot from his hand, burning the note as it landed on the temple floor.

"I am no longer vulnerable..."

He smirked as he glanced to his palms which now displayed the symbol of the Ebon Skull. He then slowly glanced over at the note as he walked away, a single tear falling unvoluntarily from his eye.
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