Dan Sage


Joined: 02 Sep 2004 Posts: 622 Location: FFXIV, Jenova Server.
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Posted: Wed Feb 08, 2006 11:51 am Post subject: Dan's Journal II |
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February the 8th
Dear Journal,
1st Lieutenant. A moderate rank within the Legion, but is that what I truly want? The power of rank is not exactly the type of thing that I had been looking towards whenever I joined this Order. It is true that I am here for a career, but believe it or not, progression is not an issue for me.
Some believe I am very worthy of it.
Some could care less.
These women, these fellow officers in the Sanctus divisions, they have begun to tease and flirt with me in my recent days. Originally, due to my old womanizing habits at the Freehold, I would gladly accept them, but how am I to know what their true attraction is? Me, or my title? That itself has found to be a difficult question in these trying times. I wish to remain friends though, so that I may live up to my moral standards and progress in my life as I wish. Its my life.
Troubles are beginning to show notice with the royal in Tokuno. My old lord, Tai, has swallowed his pride and treaded on the Sanctus soil for help. Naturally I would assist him, but seeing him upon the cot within Mallory's home only brings one question to mind. "Did I make the right choice?" Would he have been like this if I had not left Tokuno? Would he still be as strong and mindful if I had stayed at his side as an aide? Such questions trouble me, as I cannot say for sure if I have chosen the right path here in these lands.
And this scar, this scar I bear on my right hand...it will not heal. The damndable blade of that accursed puppeteer daemon, Zyron, will probrably always have his mark on me. I can only hope that nothing shall develop from it, considering how I so narrowly escaped as I did through the compassion of my ex lover. For that, I owe her, but alas I cannot bear feelings for any women in these days.
I can have no dependents.
Perhaps a career in the side of Order is not what is best for me, but I do think that here in Sanctus I can atleast have a goal to shoot for. A goal which can drive me to strive in this lifestyle to become the best that I can be. Though I do believe in Order, I do also believe that my chaotic elvish side in me yearns for action. Hopefully I may feed that.
For now, I will be the big brother.
Dan, First Lieutenant. |
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