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[selena cross]

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The days all seemed to be rolled together, the concept of time seemed to all meld together as if it was all one long day. i sat at my desk flipping through my journal, it had been some time since the my other personality came crashing into my life. taking a deep breath i flipped to a blank page, pulling out a fresh quill pen and dipped its tip into the inkwell on my desk i began to write.

I attended a wedding last night, i couldn't help but let my mind drift as i sat watching. could i ever find a love like that, could i find someone to share my life with. tears started to form in my eyes as i thought about what could be, what may never be. i watched as they looked so happy i cannot write anymore i keep thinking about my secret

I closed my journal and walked over to my window, i stood staring out across the water placing my hand on the window sighing deeply as tears began to form once again. soon the sadness turned to anger and i swung my hand out and shouted .......KAL VAS FLAM ....... a flame shot out of my finger tips engulfing my house in fire. i sat in the middle with the flames dancing all around me, not a care in the world as the flames soon died down i was saddened a little then i realized i had previously made arrangement to have the inner walls fireproofed.

I looked back to my journal now charred and blackened by the fire, i opened it slowly only to have it crumble from my mere touch. shaking my head and whispering to myself........ i lose more journals that way .. i reached into my desk drawer and pulled out a brand new journal. i opened up to the first blank page and began to write...

this secret is eating away at me, they don't know who i really am can i trust them, will they turn me away , will i be treated differently but most importantly will i ever find a wife to call my own.......

I closed the journal and laid on my bed dreaming of if i should tell people of my secret, i closed my eyes and was soon asleep.